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Thursday, October 26, 2017

Montessori Floorbed? Our Baby's Sleep Arrangement

Recently I posted a photo of my son's Montessori style floorbed on Instagram, and several of my followers showed interest in knowing more about it. So, although I am unable to fully get all the details in one page, I am going to attempt to summarize the basics of how we learned about floor beds, why we decided to try it, some of the unforseen difficulties, and ultimately, why we plan to do the exact same thing with any future kids we might be blessed enough to raise.

First of all, the floor bed wasn't fully planned from the get-go. When I was pregnant with Theodore, we intended to have a crib for him. We knew he and I would co-sleep for at least 3-4 months though, so we really weren't too concerned with getting a crib right away. It wasn't a priority.

When Teddy came home from the hospital, he slept in bed with me and my husband (Zach), and I kept his bassinet/cradle right next to me. For a few weeks I was able to nurse him on and off throughout the night and then put him back in his cradle, keeping him an arms reach away. We used the cradle for naps sometimes as well, so that I could have time to shower and eat while he was sleeping. Pretty soon though, Teddy decided he much preferred sleeping in my arms, and didn't want to be placed back in his cradle after nursing. And to be honest, I preferred it too. We also discovered that he had reflux, and part of the reason he wanted to be held was because when he slept inclined on my chest, or propped up on my arm, it eased his discomfort. (Side Note: Months later, after many trials and errors, we finally discovered that Teddy's reflux was caused by allergies to foods I was eating, but for a long time, we were unable to figure out the exact culprits. So during that time, my mommy instincts told me that the best thing to do was to try and make him as comfortable as possible, until we could figure out exactly how to solve the problem.)

During those first few weeks, my husband was able to stay home with us and help me through the sleep deprivation and body aches, as I healed from the general soreness of childbirth, and adjusted to my new role. He was my hero.  My real life knight in shining armor, bringing me snacks while I nursed Teddy, tirelessly holding my hand while we navigated the painful phase of breastfeeding, changing diapers, truly saving me day in and day out.

And then he went back to work.

At the time, Zach was working some odd hours, sometimes waking up at 3:30 or 4 am in order to drive out of town for work. He also stayed in a hotel when he was working away from home, which meant Teddy and I were by ourselves many nights. I decided to sleep in the nursery when we were alone. It made diaper changes easier. We still had a twin bed in the nursery because prior to having Teddy, we used it as a spare room. And I had also spent some nights there during my third trimester, because pregnancy sleep was impossible, and between my tossing and turning, and getting up every half hour to pee, I was concerned about keeping Zach awake, which in turn made it even more difficult to fall asleep (even though Zach literally never complained). So having the twin bed in Teddy's room sort of worked out perfectly. Teddy and I loved having our own space, we could coo at each other in the dark of the night, move around as much as we wanted to get comfy, and I didn't really feel the need to try and be quiet while burping/changing him, because when Zach was home, he was sleeping in the other room. It was also more physically comfortable for all three of us, with Teddy and I having our own sleep space. Zach and I had always shared a queen bed, and while that worked fine for the two of us, it wasn't easy for us both to sleep well with Teddy in bed also. So this was really the perfect solution, we were all much happier and getting more sleep than we had before.

Once we got used to the new arrangement, I began trying my hand at the old "nurse, and roll away" tactic, when Teddy was napping and I wanted to get up and do things. He was not even close to mobile, but I would still block the edge of the bed, just in case. When he became more mobile, we realized we would either need to get a crib, or figure something else out, because we didn't want him rolling off the bed and getting hurt. It was around this time that I was also looking at DIY baby tee-pees online. I wanted to make one for Teddy eventually, like a little playhouse for his room, and when I typed the words into the Pinterest search bar, keywords "baby" and "teepee" brought up a blog post by Lauren Hartmann, about her daughter Fern's floor bed. I was elated! Someone else had already written a blog post about the exact solution to my problem, and I stumbled upon it accidentally. What luck! I read about her floor bed experience, and then I began researching more floor bed stories. I realized this was a common practice in the Montessori world (which I had heard of, and was curious about), as well as in other cultures. So I told Zach about the idea, and we decided to remove the twin bed frame/box spring from underneath the bed Teddy and I had been sleeping on, and we put the mattress directly on the floor. I folded quilts and blankets to put around the edge so that if Teddy ever did roll off (which surprisingly, he didn't), he'd have a nice soft landing. This made me much more comfortable leaving the room if I had to use the bathroom or eat a snack. We thought of this as a temporary solution and still had the crib in the back of our minds. But as time went on, we started getting used to the idea that a crib wasn't 100% necessary. Plus, we figured the later transition to a big kid bed would likely be pretty simple for Teddy, since not a whole lot would be changing.

This initial change from twin bed to floor bed took place right around the time Teddy turned 4 months old. He had been sleeping with me since he was born, and pretty soon would be sleeping on his own! This was also the time Zach and I were looking for a new place to live, out of state. We knew we wanted to leave California, and we had our sights set on Idaho, after having visited on vacation two years prior. Because we knew we would be moving soon, the thought of not having to buy a crib seemed even more appealing, and we became fully committed to the idea of the floorbed, planning Teddy's room in the new house to accommodate one. We had a Pack n' Play, so we knew that was an option if we ever needed to put Teddy in a temporary safe spot to sleep/nap in, until we had his room set up at the new house. Once we found a rental and had a moving date, we decided it was time for me to end the co-sleeping arrangement. We were moving in one month, and Teddy's sleep habits were not ideal.

By this time, Teddy was almost 5 months old, and he was beginning to sleep less and less, refusing to be put to bed by anyone besides me, refusing bottles of my breast milk, refusing to sleep unless I was laying with him,  and was just generally an overly tired, cranky baby. He would only sleep if I was nursing or holding him, and I was exhausted. I didn't know how I was going to pack up the house and move across state with a baby who cried every time he left my arms. I tried baby wearing, but even that didn't work for me long term. It was ok sometimes, but it wasn't a solution. After many lengthy discussions with friends and family who had already raised kids, we decided it was time to try something new. We thought with all the big changes coming up, a new house, Teddy having a new room, it might be easier to make the transition to a new room if he was already used to sleeping on his own before the move. At the time, it was the hardest thing in the world for me. I hated having a wall in between my baby and me. But looking back now, I am so glad we did it at that time. It took some getting used to at first, but we stuck with it, and by the time we left the old house, Teddy was a sleep champ. We moved one month later and he transitioned to his new home with ease. I was able to finally start sleeping more. He had gone from waking up every 30-45 minutes in the night, to sleeping 4-5 hour stretches, once he realized that night time wasn't an all you can eat boobie buffet.

Age 5 months. Consistently napping on his floor bed (Pre-crawling phase!)
At this stage, having a floor bed really wasn't much different than having a crib, because Teddy wasn't moving around too much. He would roll around a little bit, but for the most part, he was a late bloomer when it came to the mobility milestones. In the early phases of floor bed, the biggest positive for us was the fact that there was absolutely zero risk of our son getting his limbs stuck in between crib rails. If an actual crib mattress is used (which many people do) it's even more similar. The only reasons we went with the twin was because we already had one, and were planning to keep it for Theodore's toddler bed. The twin also made a perfect place for me to lay down with Teddy during night time and early morning nursing sessions. The other obvious difference between a crib and a floor bed, is that there is a chance the child could roll off the edge of the bed. If a low crib mattress is used,  they are only about 4 inches off the floor, and folded blankets around the sides can further cushion the landing if desired. But from what I've heard, most babies only roll off a couple of times, and many of them don't even wake up. I think Teddy may have rolled off once or twice at the new house, but it's hard to tell because it was around the same time he started scooting, and was practicing getting out of bed on his own anyways.

Waking up in his new room! Age 6 mo.
Once we got to the new house, I prepared Theodore's room so that when he did start really scooting around, there were no dangers. His dresser went in the closet, and there were only a couple of electronic devices, which were kept out of reach because I gated off the corner of his room where they were plugged in. He had a white noise machine, baby monitor, and a humidifier. When he started really crawling, I realized he could probably move the gate if he tried hard enough, so I took all the items with cords out of his room, removed the baby gate, and made him a special area in one corner, where I could sit and nurse him, read books, and snuggle before bed time. We call that area his "reading nook" and it has a soft rug to lay on, some blankets, and a few pillows.

One of the drawbacks to having a floor bed, is the lack of adult-related things you can keep in the room once the baby is able to move around. A baby monitor, for example (unless it is wired way up high, out of children's reach) or comfort items like a fan, heater, etc. These aren't really a big deal to do without, but when you think of a modern nursery, you think of these things being readily available, a rocking chair, a place to plug your phone in while nursing, a night light or lamp. But with a Montessori room, the room is for the child, not the grownups. So all the outlets are covered and there's nothing in the room that could pose a potential danger if the child were to crawl underneath or begin climbing on it.
Teddy's "Reading Nook" 

At this point you're probably wondering, what about when they are mobile? How the heck do you keep the kid in bed?? Well, you don't really. The idea is to allow them to have the freedom to move around, to explore their surroundings, and eventually to learn that the bed is for sleep. It's the exact opposite of a crib where the child is prevented from movement, and therefore sleeps because there is no other option. With a floor bed, the hope is that at some point, the child learns that when they are tired, they can simply go to bed. I think the first time Teddy put himself to bed completely on his own, he was around 10 months old. It isn't something he does all the time, but every once in a while he does do it. Generally, he likes to be tucked in, so he comes to one of us to let us know he's tired, and we take him to bed and give him kisses. But there are times when even after we leave the room, we hear him get out of bed to play with his toys for a while before finally deciding to go to sleep on his own. And we encourage this, because he is learning that sleep is a choice just like everything else. And he can choose to go to bed when he is ready.

Now for the biggest struggle we have had with the floor bed, the scooting phase:

The phase when Teddy learned he could get himself out of bed and transport himself across the room by scooting was by far the most complicated. I think he may have been around 7 or 8 months old. There was about a 3 week gap in between the time he learned how to get out of his bed, and when he finally learned to climb back into bed. It may have been easier for him if we had been using a crib mattress, because those are smaller, but we decided to just stay consistent and stick with what he was used to. "He'll figure it out eventually" was a basic household mantra during this time.

During wake times, this phase was great. It was amazing when Teddy would wake up early in the morning and not need anything from us for about 30 minutes, sometimes up to an hour! We would wake to hear him cooing and playing, I could hear him from our room. He'd have his books, teethers, or plush toys and be just scooting around like the happiest little guy on the planet, and us tired parents, we could continue sleeping! (Or "dozing" as I like to say, because I can never fully fall asleep when I know Theodore is awake.) These were the most rewarding moments for us, truly magical. To hear our little dude in there all proud of himself, happily playing, independently self-entertained, it was a real treat. All of our concerns and constant questioning whether we had made the right choices were slipping away. We felt validated, a sigh of relief knowing that real growth was happening right before our very eyes. Nap time, on the other hand, was a different story. Naps were hard. Really hard.

At night, Teddy would generally go to sleep where we put him, and only get out of bed if he was hungry or needed a diaper change. Night time sleep wasn't too difficult, in my opinion, during this phase, he was tired from the day, it was dark, he had a routine, it was sort of a given that he was going to fall asleep and stay asleep for at least 4 hours. But naps, wowza. What a rollercoaster. We had days when we contemplated putting him in a crib. We didn't know if we were doing something wrong, or if this was just a normal part of babyhood. Teddy would be so SO tired, showing obvious signs of sleepiness, in desperate need of a nap, and then spring back to action as soon as we put him to bed. Every day was different. Some days he would cry at nap time, other days he would play in his room for an hour and never fall asleep, other days he would fall asleep in weird places on the floor, and some times I would just give up and take him on a car ride or stroller walk because I was at my wits end, and I knew he needed to sleep, but didn't know how to help him get there. We tried putting him to bed earlier, keeping him awake longer, feeding him more, any advice we got, we tried. Also, you should know, during this time Teddy never liked being rocked or held to sleep. Apart from the newborn phase when he was constantly nursing, he generally would get fussy and cranky if we tried to rock him or soothe him to sleep. He never took a pacifier, hated bottles, and didn't want to be held. Even nursing him to sleep was no longer and option because he was always wanting to play with mommy after eating, instead of going to sleep.

For me, this was rough. I always have leaned more towards the attachment parenting side, while Zach is more of a tough love kind of guy. It actually works out pretty well for us as a family, because there's a nice balance. If I had been on my own, I would have driven myself nuts trying to prevent Teddy from EVER crying. Although, it never would have worked because he didn't even like being snuggled or rocked at that time. So my attempts to comfort him were futile. I hated seeing him tired or upset, but Zach helped me learn that sometimes we have to struggle a little bit in order to come out stronger on the other side. So there were some tears at times, both from me and from Theodore, while we experimented and learned how to best help our baby get some rest, but it worked out for the best. We had attempted all kinds of different ways to get Teddy to nap, sometimes trying my ideas, sometimes Zach's ideas. But ultimately, it had to be Theodore's choice. He had to decide on his own when he was ready for sleep. The one thing that we both think probably helped him the most, was to simply enter his room and put him back in bed every time he got up. He knew he wanted to go to sleep but he didn't know how. He was tired, his desire to practice crawling drove him to scoot out of bed, but then he would get upset when he tried to go back and was unable to get back in. We decided to consistently show him that the bed was a comfortable place, and that going to bed when you are sleepy is a really great idea. Then during awake times, we would help him practice climbing into bed all throughout the day, until he finally could do it on his own. All of sudden, we had a baby who might get out of bed at nap time, play or fuss for a few minutes, and then decide to just crawl back to bed and go to sleep! And while this whole process maybe isn't exactly ideal for busy parents who have a lot of stuff going on, it ended up being ok for us. I think that 2-3 week phase was the hardest part of the floor bed experience, so far. I could probably write an entire blog post about that alone. But once Teddy finally learned how to climb back into bed on his own, the road got smoother. Much smoother. And the payoff for him learning this valuable skill was huge.

Now Teddy is 17 months old. We still struggle with naps from time to time, but there is usually a reason. Either he is sick, or teething, or going through some sort of new change (like when he was weaning). For the most part, Theodore loves his bed. There are plenty of times during the week that he wakes up chipper and plays for a few minutes while I finish doing things around the house. It's much more relaxed. There are still times when he wakes up fussy or upset because he didn't nap long enough, or he's hungry or needs a change, but that's pretty much a normal part of being a baby/toddler.

Having the floor bed has had it's ups and downs. But every time Zach and I considered using a crib, we always circled back to the same point. We always ended up realizing that even if we had Teddy in a crib, we would probably still have the same, or similar challenges. The one thing that we probably would not have dealt with, would have been those weeks when Teddy was able to get out of bed, but not able to get back in. However, on the flip side, we never had to worry about him getting an arm stuck in a rail, or trying to climb out of a crib and potentially hurting himself. The other bonus to that struggle is Teddy found independence. He found confidence and is now able to decide if he needs to nap, or if he needs to just have a little quiet alone time. Sometimes he is tired, but not tired enough to sleep, and some quiet time with his books is just enough to help recharge his batteries and make it to the next bed time. Also, having the floor bed makes his room a really fun place for the whole family to be. Some of my fondest memories include all three of us playing in Teddy's room, sprawled out on the floor, talking, laughing, tickling, all of us laying in his bed reading together. It's opened up doors for a new kind of bonding. Teddy's room isn't just a "nursery" or a place to keep a bunch of grownup stuff to help care for a baby. It's his space, his play area, his sleep spot, his reading nook, HIS safe place to go when he is tired. It's his special room with all his own special things, where mommy and daddy go to comfort him when he is sick, and sing to him before bed. Every night I lay down with him, snuggle up close while I read him stories, sing to, and pray with him. I couldn't lay with him if he was in a crib. His room is so much more than I ever dreamed it to be, and the floor bed is the reason for all of it.

Now that we are thinking about baby number two, we realize how special and family-oriented a floor bed is. It's definitely on our mind and I can't really see using a crib for any other children we may have. We are open to using the crib if the need arises. But so far we haven't had any issues that couldn't be resolved through patience and perseverance. The floor bed is really about teaching your child healthy sleep habits, rather than forcing them to sleep because they have no other option.

I do think that there are some situations a floor bed might not work for. If you are unable to make the room safe, or if your child has a personality that doesn't jive well with the freedoms a floor bed allows, they may be safer and happier with more physical boundaries. On the whole though, I think a floor bed is a very simple concept, and allows parents to be minimal in their approach to what furniture they buy for their child, as well as what kinds of things they keep in the child's room. A child that doesn't have too many toys will often use their imagination more, and we have witnessed this in Theodore a great deal in the past few months. Looking into the floor bed option for a child can really change not only your perspective on sleep habits, but also your entire approach to parenting. Children learn by exploring and experimenting, so it's really neat to know that when our son wakes up early in the morning, he's in there learning something new, imagining, tinkering, and doing things all on his own!


Wednesday, October 25, 2017

Ways to Live More Sustainably, Right Now

Living a sustainable life doesn't have to be anything fancy. You don't have to buy a plot of land somewhere off the grid, switch to solar energy, or start making your own bread. A lot of times, living a  "sustainable lifestyle" is misinterpreted as being a full-blown homesteader. While that would be the ideal situation for many of us, it's not entirely true.

You can begin making more earth-friendly, non-consumer based, and sustainable choices right now, anywhere, any time. Whether you live in a major city or a small town, the journey towards sustainability begins as a shift in how you think about the products you consume, and the waste you create. So many factors go into this concept that I can barely graze the tip of the iceberg in one blog post. But I'll start with some basics.

Learn to make things that you would normally buy. This does not mean stop going to the store forever and ever. No, it just means, learn a new skill. Crochet or knitting are good ones to start with. So are sewing, canning, cooking from scratch, repairing broken items around the house, making your own lotions, skincare products etc. Every time we run out to the store and buy something, we are sending a message to the manufacturers to make more stuff. We are taking part in the consumer-manufacturer cycle and in turn, our planet and our oceans are becoming littered with and covered in garbage. All of the packaging from those items, as well as the items themselves (when they break or become no longer useful) end up in landfills, and consequently, in waterways, forests, and all kinds of places they don't belong. Think of how rewarding it might feel if you were able to make winter hats for your whole family using locally sourced wool or cotton. Or sewing a torn pair of jeans into a gardening apron, or shopping bags. Or even doing a DIY face mask, or hair moisturizer.

Need less stuff. What? Am I saying "need less stuff," or "needless stuff?" Good question. A lot of the crap and clutter that we have in our houses is just needless stuff. But somehow it accumulates, sitting, mocking, staring at us while it collects dust. We pick the stuff up and move it from place to place every time we clean, but we never get rid of it. Why? Well, that might be a topic for a whole different post. There are tons of reasons why we tend to hold on to things, but for now I'll just focus on the getting rid of it. When we own less things, we value what we own more. We begin to realize what we do own has value, and the desire for more "stuff" goes away. Look at the items that you no longer use and imagne your life without them. Sell them if they are worth something. Give them to a friend that will find them useful. Donate if you think someone else might need them. And then continue on with your life, needing less stuff. Before you buy something new, ask yourself if you really need it. If it's not an absolute necessity, then question its usefulness. Only bring items into your home that are truly needed or loved. Try to access tools and items that were made locally to you, or at least made in the country you live in, or shop second hand.

Learn to thrift. If you absolutely have to buy an item, try thrifting for it! This cuts down on the amount of packaging you'll have to throw away, and often saves you a whole lot of money. If you find a high quality item that was really well-made, but perhaps needs a new coat of paint or a couple of screws tightened, ask yourself if the bargain is worth the little bit of work. You can find great deals for pennies if you're willing to do a little spit-shine!

Quality over Quantity. Buy better quality items. Stop buying all the flimsy junk from Target that was made in China and won't last for more than a year. Just don't do it. There are other options. Either spend a little extra on a new, very well made item, or be patient and thrift for it. EXAMPLE: I had a potato masher that was purchased at Target for around $5. The handle was plastic and it was made in some other country, which means that a portion of that $5 I paid, was simply put towards shipping costs. It broke after the second time I used it. To replace it, I went to an antique store and got the sturdiest, most well-made masher I could find (photo at top). It was metal with a wooden handle, and I made sure that the handle was metal inside too, not just a wooden handle screwed on. It cost 12 bucks. Now, our conventional way of thinking would say "buy the $5 one, dummy!" but at my rate, I'd have to buy a new one every year, or maybe more, and well, $5 twice a year, for years to come, you do the math. The well built one will probably last a lifetime. I can practically guarantee that I'll never buy another potato masher again.

Be more patient. So much of what drives our culture's consumerist attitude is a lack of patience. When we want something, we want it NOW. We want to drive to a store and get it, right this second. We don't want to spend time making something ourselves or thrifting for it. This attitude is just feeding the consumerist machine. We are telling manufacturers "Yes! We need ALL THE THINGS! Keep making them! And wrap them all in plastic!" And then we get upset when we see our sidewalks and freeways littered with trash. Or wildlife sick and dying because they are literally eating our garbage instead of real food. In order to make our planet a safer and healthier place to raise our children and grandchildren, we need to put an end to this cycle, and it starts with our way of thinking. When you get the urge to jump up and buy something, or order it on Amazon with same-day shipping, really sit with it. Give yourself 24 hours. Sleep on it. Re-holster your wallet and unload the browser. Just chilllllll man. You might wake up in the morning and realize you really didn't need that item.

Say no to disposables. If you've been on the sustainability wagon for a while now, this may be a no-brainer. But for those who are just getting started, you will quickly learn that one of the easiest and most basic methods of creating less waste is to "bring your own." Bring your own cup to the coffee shop, bring your own straw out to eat, or to the bar (or don't use one), bring your own shopping bags to the store, and bring your own refillable water bottle wherever you would normally bring a disposable one. There are lots of other "bring your own" items, like eating utensils, cloth napkins, food containers, bulk bags, etc. But these 4 basics are the easiest ones to start with.

Make your own: sauces, broths, salsas, etc. I listed canning as one of the "skills to learn" in tip number one, but you can still make these things without having the knowledge of how to preserve them for long term. Instead of buying spaghetti sauce or salsa from the store, learn how to make it yourself from fresh ingredients. To make things easier on yourself, make a double or triple batch all at once, and freeze the extra in single serving containers or jars. This is really a life-changer because when you have ready made food at your fingertips, you are far less likely to buy processed, packaged food, or to eat out. You'll save money and be healthier. Some great dishes I really love to do this with are chili, soups, pasta sauces, bone broth, taco meat, shredded chicken, diced veggies, baked beans, and freezer jam.

Meal Plan. Plan your meals around locally grown and farmed ingredients. Try to use whole ingredients (whole=not processed), and ingredients with little to no packaging. If you can grow some of the ingredients yourself, that's even better. Also, don't just plan for the week, take tip number seven to the next level by planning for future meals. For example, if you're browning some ground beef for a meal this week, try doing double the amount, brown all of it at once, and then freeze the unused portion. This way you already have a partially prepared meal ready to go if you end up getting sick or too tired to cook. Any time you can use homemade food instead of running out the door for takeout, you're making a more sustainable choice. You're using something that is already available to you rather than looking outwards for something new to fulfill your needs.

Learn to garden. If you have a sunny window, you can grow at least one plant. I grow plants on a window sill in the winter when the snow comes. You can keep some herbs indoors and use them for cooking, and you can even keep some vegetable plants in containers on a patio or balcony. If you are lucky and have even a small patch of dirt to use as a garden, go for it! Don't be afraid to try something new. Even if it's just one tomato plant your first year, those will be the best tasting tomatoes you have ever eaten, because you will be reaping the benefits of your own hard work.

Don't try to be perfect. Seriously you guys, have fun with it. People take themselves way too seriously sometimes, and I think that's a huge part of why so many don't ever want to try anything new. The fear of messing up or not doing something properly overrides the fear of slowly killing our planet, and filling our bodies with toxins. Don't be afraid of messing up, and don't beat yourself up if/when you do. You'll never be perfect, I will never be perfect, none of us will. We are human beings and all we can do is try our best. When we fail, we just have to shake it off and tell ourselves "better luck next time, champ." and move on.

So there you have it, a few little basics that you can start any time, no matter where you live. I know there is a lot more to be said about the topic of sustainability. There are a whole ton of layers to the concept, and it really can't all be covered in one blog post. Some of the tips I didn't mention and may discuss in more detail in future blog posts would be; locally farmed eggs, dairy, and meat, locally grown produce, composting, using veggie scraps in recipes, owning chickens, ducks, goats, or other livestock, trading goods and services with friends, rather than purchasing from big companies, skipping the salon/self-care at home (diy pedicures, eyebrow shaping, hair trims, facials, etc), thrifting tips/how to spot a good buy vs. a cheap one, honestly the list goes on and on. Definitely don't be afraid to let me know if there is a specific topic you'd like to hear more about. I may turn this into a series of posts, where I can dive deeper into the different sub categories. I hope you enjoyed reading this and please feel free to comment with any questions or new ideas. Thanks!

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